God’s Plan

Being in a generation of planners, I have accustomed to the norm of always having a plan. This means I have a plan for school, relationships, my life in five years, and my future family. Most of these plans are pretty good in my head, I visualize many details and think, “wow this can’t get much better”. But then when these plans are passed, do they actually turn out how you wanted them to? Do they turn out better or worse? Usually, it turns out just how God wanted it to; which is usually pretty AMAZING. 

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English Standard Version Act 13: 1-5 : Taken from Olive Tree Bible Study app.

 I attended this church event and the speaker touched on this passage in Acts. Basically, Barnabas and Saul were their best leaders. They wanted to keep them to continue to benefit from their teachings but they asked God, “What do you think we should do?”. God replied that Barnabas and Saul should be sent off to teach and lead other places so that others can benefit. After they were sent off, the world was never the same again. If they had never been sent off, our world would not know God as we do today. We would not know church as we do today. How crazy is that? They thought their plan was going to be great; they would use Barnabas and Saul as their teachers and create a wonderful place. But God had a different plan and sure enough, it was so much better. 

Think about that for a second. Have you ever had plans and when it didn’t go how you thought, it usually turned out even better? That’s because that was God working. That was God’s plan for you in action. Have you ever had a plan and it actually turned out worse? That’s just another example of God’s plan for you in progress. God always brings us to these darker places just to walk us right through it and into the light. 

BUT God’s plans cannot work if you are not open to them. Are you willing to let your plans go for God’s plan? I know I am. 

So, find some peace in the fact that God has a plan for you and that your plans might not work out. Just becasue they are not working out as YOU planned them, does not mean you have failed. It actually means you have succeeded in letting your plans go and letting  God’s plan take over. 

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God’s Love Is Enough

For a while now I’ve struggled with the fact that I’m single, lonely, and alone. I am someone who enjoys people, affection, and companionship. For the life of me, I cannot figure out why I haven’t found that “someone” yet. I am upset with God for making me ponder my worth and questioning his intentions. It wasn’t until this year that I realized what God’s master plan was and why He was doing it. Now, I have a feeling that I’m not alone in this situation so I’m hoping to change at least one other person’s perspective with this blog post today.

How can I love someone else fully when the first thing my mind jumps to is, “why am I not good enough?” and “what am I doing wrong?” when God doesn’t answer my prayers. How can I expect God to put someone in my life to enjoy my time with when I can’t seem to even enjoy my time with Him? How can I expect God to reward me with things when I have not done things for Him? These are the things you and I have to remind ourselves when we start questioning His ultimate plan and our unanswered prayers. Instead of always questioning and always being irritated we must change our habits to help guide our intentions the right way. These are some ways to treat God as your significant other and teach your mind to always put Him first.

  1. Spend your time with Him. If you had a significant other you’d be texting, calling, and facetiming them whenever and wherever. Do this with God and see how much more accompanied you feel. If you’re walking to class, start a conversation with Him about what you’re thankful for, what you’re worried about, or someone you’re thinking about. Schedule time and days with Him like you would a significant other to get excited about your time together. It doesn’t have to be long and it doesn’t have to be fancy just showing up and interacting is the basic necessities.
  2. Share your joys, cast your worries, and rest your burdens on Him. Nothing can make two people closer than sharing everything together. When you start sharing all of these things with Him you’ll start to feel the connection and your loneliness will start diminishing. You’ll feel loved, you’ll feel heard, and you’ll feel at peace; just like you would if you shared your life with a significant other.
  3. Make Him a top priority. This one can be tricky since our day to day lives are so chaotic and busy but try and make spending time with Him something that is really important to you. Whether this time is 5 minutes, 15 minutes or an hour just make the time. Doing this reminds you that you’re not alone and that even though you don’t have a boyfriend/girlfriend you do have someone special. Take this time and cherish it.
  4. Pray for Him to fill you with His love. When I feel that I’m struggling with feeling His love or I’m starting to question His plan, I pray. I pray that He fills my heart with His love and that when I start to doubt Him, He brings me back to the mindset that He has a plan. Ask Him to help you change your habits and give you grace when you fail to do so.

These are just a few things but hopefully, you get the concept! Once I started doing this my heart stopped longing for someone to fill my emptiness and it started filling with the love I have for Him. I’m not going to sugarcoat it, this mindset takes a long time to get to and sometimes I still struggle! But the progress is worth it and the harder you try, the easier it will be.



A Smack In The Face

There are days I doubt His presence, His ability to answer prayers, lately, I could tell I had been doubting quite often. I still studied the Bible and journaled through my readings but in the back of my mind I hesitated to fully believe. Apparently God decided to give me a little nudge toward the path of believing.

The night before I had had a rough night with my friend and a guy I had liked. I woke up feeling angry and betrayed. I silently asked God, “should I be mad? Am I overreacting?”. I wasn’t receiving an answer which only made me more upset. I pouted throughout the day and basically had a huge pity party for my bad night. Then I headed towards my Bible study with a close friend. It was our first day of it so we were discussing how to start, where to start, and what to do. I suggested that I flip through the book and randomly land on a verse and then we would discuss it. As I was flipping I again silently asked God, “should I be mad?” and as I stopped to point at a verse and started to read I felt a smack in the face, a punch in the gut, and became weak in the knees.

I ended up in the book of Psalms, ironic because it is the most emotional book in the Bible. I pointed to chapter 37. The first words I read were, “Quit being angry and dismiss fury; do not get heated; it leads only to evil.” I knew right then that He existed, He was listening, and He was answering. Since that day I haven’t doubted Him once and I don’t think I ever will again.

I know firsthand how difficult it is to believe in an idea so complex that your brain cannot even comprehend it. But let me assure you, it is not impossible. If you open your ears, eyes, and heart to God He will protect you, heal you, and answer you.

A Smack In The Face
New Berkeley Version – Psalm 37: 8